So Alive and So Dead

I’ve never felt so alive and so dead…

I’m perfectly alive because I can feel and identify with everything around me. I feel, I sense, I process, I breathe, I think. I’m alive!
I’m perfectly dead because even though I can feel everything, I cannot do anything against the emotions and the happenings around me. I cannot act, cannot push myself, cannot manipulate the way I feel. I’m dead!

Life’s ought to be about something else then. Still figuring it out…