I’ve never felt so alive and so dead…
I’m perfectly alive because I can feel and identify with everything around me. I feel, I sense, I process, I breathe, I think. I’m alive!
I’m perfectly dead because even though I can feel everything, I cannot do anything against the emotions and the happenings around me. I cannot act, cannot push myself, cannot manipulate the way I feel. I’m dead!
Life’s ought to be about something else then. Still figuring it out…
Friday, January 21, 2011
Tuesday, January 4, 2011
Life is not factual
It's not what we see; it's what we make you believe is real. And even the things you see, are not real. They are the reality we created for you.
Nothing is factual. Life is not factual. Then how are we supposed to write and talk about "facts"? Maybe life is just an illusion we create our own facts in. Yet, the real and true facts are somewhere outside our manners of perception.
Because as far as we know, our brains are not all-understanding, all-perceivable, all-knowing. And so, we live something that might be true or not. Mistake, isn't it? Yet, when you think about it, it's the only option we have.
Find inner peace. And get rid of your demons. They mess with your head. Forget what you just read.
Nothing is factual. Life is not factual. Then how are we supposed to write and talk about "facts"? Maybe life is just an illusion we create our own facts in. Yet, the real and true facts are somewhere outside our manners of perception.
Because as far as we know, our brains are not all-understanding, all-perceivable, all-knowing. And so, we live something that might be true or not. Mistake, isn't it? Yet, when you think about it, it's the only option we have.
Find inner peace. And get rid of your demons. They mess with your head. Forget what you just read.
Sunday, January 2, 2011
I am a Racist...
Yes, I am a racist. Not against a certain gender, nationality, ethnicity, or religion. I am just a racist against humanity. This weird species that decided to spread so fast and decided it could destroy the earth in whatever way it wants. This epiphany came to me in light of the recent events in Egypt - where I live and am from. To cut a long story short, a couple of minutes after midnight on new years' eve, a car-bomb went off in front of a Church in Alexandria, killing 21 Christians and wounding 100 Christians and Muslims.
This is by no way normal, but rather an act of shame and disgrace. When we have come to the point of brutally attacking and killing people in their Sacred Prayer-houses during their celebrations and prayers, we must admit that we really have come a long way from what we used to be. Especially in Egypt, Christians and Muslims used to cope with each other quite normally, without any problems. Yet, we have abandoned that fact some time ago. Now everything seems so far away that we do not even know where we had started. Tolerance, acceptance and understanding have been flushed down the drain. One can barely find anyone with a bit of conscience and respect.
What problems would such an attack solve? Where would such a life-style lead us to in some years? Where has our sense of humanity gone to? Utopia is not so bad and is achievable. So work on it.
If anyone plans on killing anything, it should be killing the hate and intolerance in people, not promoting it and forcing it to flourish. So to those who planned and executed the attack: Go to hell. You do not deserve to live in this world.
And peace to the rest of the world. Amen.
This is by no way normal, but rather an act of shame and disgrace. When we have come to the point of brutally attacking and killing people in their Sacred Prayer-houses during their celebrations and prayers, we must admit that we really have come a long way from what we used to be. Especially in Egypt, Christians and Muslims used to cope with each other quite normally, without any problems. Yet, we have abandoned that fact some time ago. Now everything seems so far away that we do not even know where we had started. Tolerance, acceptance and understanding have been flushed down the drain. One can barely find anyone with a bit of conscience and respect.
What problems would such an attack solve? Where would such a life-style lead us to in some years? Where has our sense of humanity gone to? Utopia is not so bad and is achievable. So work on it.
If anyone plans on killing anything, it should be killing the hate and intolerance in people, not promoting it and forcing it to flourish. So to those who planned and executed the attack: Go to hell. You do not deserve to live in this world.
And peace to the rest of the world. Amen.
Sunday, November 14, 2010
Clashes of Ideologies
The pinpoint of normality has by far been overturned. The inner emotions and rational solutions of a person can be shattered in just a second. In that second, he gets a clear picture of the world and starts realizing what he has been protected of. He thanks God a hundred times for the blessings He has given him and the unlimited grace and mercy He has had. Unfortunate people with unfortunate ideas lead unfortunate lives that lead to the unfortunate nowhere or to the equally unfortunate doom. He has stopped believing in the good side of people. The innocent, life-mastering, close-to-God, pure, wise, white side. Living a reality that he hates, he will continue his life, not knowing where he belonged. Being as extreme and as radical as he was, he distanced himself from everyone and everything. Begging. Bring me freedom and Peace Of Mind again. It has been an experience, but I do not want to live it again. Reality is my biggest frontier. Digging deeper into me and flourishing proudly as if it was worth it. But no, it is not all that great. And people are sinking further down towards the flames of hell, accepting and knowing this fact, but kindly believing that God will rescue them at the last minute. Out of fear of missing out on something in this life, everyone does as they wish, without considering right from wrong. Unleashing powerful demons within themselves, they believe that they have found the core of this life, when they really have not.
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
Saturday, October 9, 2010
Monday, September 20, 2010
It's Odd...
It’s odd.
I hate these chains that at other times feel like smooth honey crawling over my skin.
I hate these voices that at other times make me love the state I’m in and the person I am.
I hate the taste of life in my mouth that at other times makes me ecstatic and filled with rapture and harmony.
I hate these feelings that at other times are the secret ingredients to my pure joy and give me the feeling of wings on my back.
I hate these three empty words I speak that at other times are so full of meaning and passion.
I hate the hopes of my mind that at other times are just tiny components of a series of pleasurable and memorable moments.
I hate the person inside of me. And I hate most people around me.
Take me away to where the essence of life has been created and is being carried on today.
Take me back to a time with more work and more love and more discipline and more balance.
Carry me on the high horse of Heaven to a place where I can find myself in.
The meaning of true happiness will never again be my companion, for I have become a person with other principles and morals that were not identified till now. I expect too much.
I hate these chains that at other times feel like smooth honey crawling over my skin.
I hate these voices that at other times make me love the state I’m in and the person I am.
I hate the taste of life in my mouth that at other times makes me ecstatic and filled with rapture and harmony.
I hate these feelings that at other times are the secret ingredients to my pure joy and give me the feeling of wings on my back.
I hate these three empty words I speak that at other times are so full of meaning and passion.
I hate the hopes of my mind that at other times are just tiny components of a series of pleasurable and memorable moments.
I hate the person inside of me. And I hate most people around me.
Take me away to where the essence of life has been created and is being carried on today.
Take me back to a time with more work and more love and more discipline and more balance.
Carry me on the high horse of Heaven to a place where I can find myself in.
The meaning of true happiness will never again be my companion, for I have become a person with other principles and morals that were not identified till now. I expect too much.
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